Tuesday 30 December 2014

HAPPY New year

Love your wounds - they reveal what matters most to you, what your deepest soul longing is and what you came to heal in the collective. That is why we chose to incarnate into the families and situations we did, so that we could experience that affliction, and take it on as our own and then rise above it for All...
 Love your so-called flaws, they are spiritual jewels that mark our journey and reveal where we let go of the physical to embrace the spiritual fully, as we honor the temple the way Nature made it. It connects us to the deeper soul journey ~ wisdom, maturity, depth and transcendence. We are conditioned to see them as flaws, when really, they are an initiation into the deeper mysteries.
 Love your dysfunctions and the things that cause you to lose friends, successes or throw you into life lessons. They help us to find humor, liberation and our inner child and it releases us from caring so much about what others think and allows us to find a deeper love of self and rise above the judgements of others.
 Love your pain, It teaches forgiveness, tolerance, patience and it gives us the humility we need to unite together in higher consciousness and integrity... It shows us our healing power and how to transform, face our demons and get real with who we truly are and what we need to share and express.
 Love your insecurities, they are a part of our genius and higher aspects of self that have just been shut down or unsupported. They show us our gifts and creativity and help us to let go, take risks and be comfortable in our own skin with our own boundaries and standards.
 Love your Ego/identity when in crisis, let it be a compass pointed at your higher self, so that all actions, words, decisions and behaviors, reflect the nature of your divine blueprint. It shows us how to remove masks, programmings and ancestral patterns. It teaches us where we abuse free-will and reminds us of how to be authentic, powerful, influential and an example...
 Love and honor these things in self and each other and focus on where it can take you and what it truly means, instead of how it makes one look and how it seems. When we see Truth, we see perfection in all things and we know how to find our way home...
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‪#‎embracethenewyear‬
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Monday 29 December 2014

pk effect

Jo kehte hain bhagwan hain ....
 Kya kbhi khud mein use dhunda ....
 Jo chahte hain mujhe bhandhna dharm aur sharam ki zanjeeron mein .... Unhe ailaan krti hu aaj mein .... Ki meri soch ko jakad ke dikhao to Manu .... Mere shabdon ko mita ke dikhao to jaanu ....
 Jo bhaandhne chahe mujhe khoon ke rishton ki , daulat aur shohrat jhooti shaan mein ... Ye meri chunauti hai unko .... Ki insaniyat hai dharm mera aur insaan hi bhagwan .... Baandh sako to bandho is umadte sehlab ko .....
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Sunday 28 December 2014

STUPID LIL GIRL - 2

STUPID LI'L GIRL - part 2
The princess now a ragged queen,in deprivation of love n care ...gave birth to a creature...[yeah,a creature...for the river of love had dried within her ]
The creature became a baby...
She tried the best she could,but they have been mere creatures forever...
For the showers of love have not descended yet ...
I too m awaiting the day that the creature becmz a blessing to her...
But all i can do is anticipate...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's what mommy says...
All these years she hoped that she would be at home again...
Has tried to climb and cross over the walls of the dark well...
But alas! She falls off every time....scratched n bruised ,...
And the blurry eyes have made her blind...
For she fails to see that she falls upon her creatures...
And they r broken more...
I try to find a balm to soothe all these breaks ...but u c ...i ain't no fairy...
For i m just a stupid li'l girl...n that's what mommy says...
And this stupid li'l girl wants to tell her momma...
That she has grown...that she needs her...to become strong...to become a woman...
This stupid li'l girl wants to learn of the world beyond this well...wants to love n be loved...
But u c mommy ...a creature cant love...
So come n hold this creature's hand n trust me u cn go out of this well...
placing ur feet on my shoulders...
The old woman may never turn young again..,but i believe these rags would turn into riches ...of love...
N then this ragged queen with wet eyes,a sagging body...but a joyous heart would surely say...
MY STUPID LI'L GIRL HAS GROWN, N THAT'S WHAT UR MOMMA SAYS......
Athena Jason Coelho... — 

Saturday 27 December 2014

Stupid lil girl 1

STUPID LIL GIRL
 © Athena Coelho
I never thought i would write this but i tears found their way through words ...
p.s - folks not again plz ...m shattering...
A STUPID LI'L GIRL...
A sobbing heart,wet eyes n a sagging body ...that's what marriage hs done to her...
i sit in front of her,not daring to look into her eyes...for wt wil i say ...i know nothing of these matters ...
I m a stupid li'l girl n that's wt my mommy says ....
Her words though pierce through my chest , causing a pain so excruciatingly real...
I haven't seen but the time,the moments flash before my eyes...of her life before me...
She,a princess of a lesser rich king...poor in money but rich in love...
She, a sister...blooming in the playful childhood...
Enjoying n gting all that she asked n didn't ask for...
Is this empathy i feel for her or jealousy...i know not...
For i m a stupid li'l girl ...thats wt my mommy says...
Those blissful years of 23 flew off in a fleeting glimpse...
And...thud !...she landed in a well...
Trapped in that dingy dark place,with her mind boggling...
Where did her home go ...where went the b'ful garden...
With her sobs asking...wr did the laughter go n wr went the daughter...
I search in her words n amidst her ocean of tears...but i find nothing...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's wt my mommy says ...
to b continued ... — 

Stupid lil girl 1

STUPID LIL GIRL
 © Athena Coelho
I never thought i would write this but i tears found their way through words ...
p.s - folks not again plz ...m shattering...
A STUPID LI'L GIRL...
A sobbing heart,wet eyes n a sagging body ...that's what marriage hs done to her...
i sit in front of her,not daring to look into her eyes...for wt wil i say ...i know nothing of these matters ...
I m a stupid li'l girl n that's wt my mommy says ....
Her words though pierce through my chest , causing a pain so excruciatingly real...
I haven't seen but the time,the moments flash before my eyes...of her life before me...
She,a princess of a lesser rich king...poor in money but rich in love...
She, a sister...blooming in the playful childhood...
Enjoying n gting all that she asked n didn't ask for...
Is this empathy i feel for her or jealousy...i know not...
For i m a stupid li'l girl ...thats wt my mommy says...
Those blissful years of 23 flew off in a fleeting glimpse...
And...thud !...she landed in a well...
Trapped in that dingy dark place,with her mind boggling...
Where did her home go ...where went the b'ful garden...
With her sobs asking...wr did the laughter go n wr went the daughter...
I search in her words n amidst her ocean of tears...but i find nothing...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's wt my mommy says ...
to b continued ... — 

Stupid lil girl 1

STUPID LIL GIRL
 © Athena Coelho
I never thought i would write this but i tears found their way through words ...
p.s - folks not again plz ...m shattering...
A STUPID LI'L GIRL...
A sobbing heart,wet eyes n a sagging body ...that's what marriage hs done to her...
i sit in front of her,not daring to look into her eyes...for wt wil i say ...i know nothing of these matters ...
I m a stupid li'l girl n that's wt my mommy says ....
Her words though pierce through my chest , causing a pain so excruciatingly real...
I haven't seen but the time,the moments flash before my eyes...of her life before me...
She,a princess of a lesser rich king...poor in money but rich in love...
She, a sister...blooming in the playful childhood...
Enjoying n gting all that she asked n didn't ask for...
Is this empathy i feel for her or jealousy...i know not...
For i m a stupid li'l girl ...thats wt my mommy says...
Those blissful years of 23 flew off in a fleeting glimpse...
And...thud !...she landed in a well...
Trapped in that dingy dark place,with her mind boggling...
Where did her home go ...where went the b'ful garden...
With her sobs asking...wr did the laughter go n wr went the daughter...
I search in her words n amidst her ocean of tears...but i find nothing...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's wt my mommy says ...
to b continued ... — 

Stupid lil girl 1

STUPID LIL GIRL
 © Athena Coelho
I never thought i would write this but i tears found their way through words ...
p.s - folks not again plz ...m shattering...
A STUPID LI'L GIRL...
A sobbing heart,wet eyes n a sagging body ...that's what marriage hs done to her...
i sit in front of her,not daring to look into her eyes...for wt wil i say ...i know nothing of these matters ...
I m a stupid li'l girl n that's wt my mommy says ....
Her words though pierce through my chest , causing a pain so excruciatingly real...
I haven't seen but the time,the moments flash before my eyes...of her life before me...
She,a princess of a lesser rich king...poor in money but rich in love...
She, a sister...blooming in the playful childhood...
Enjoying n gting all that she asked n didn't ask for...
Is this empathy i feel for her or jealousy...i know not...
For i m a stupid li'l girl ...thats wt my mommy says...
Those blissful years of 23 flew off in a fleeting glimpse...
And...thud !...she landed in a well...
Trapped in that dingy dark place,with her mind boggling...
Where did her home go ...where went the b'ful garden...
With her sobs asking...wr did the laughter go n wr went the daughter...
I search in her words n amidst her ocean of tears...but i find nothing...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's wt my mommy says ...
to b continued ... — 

Stupid lil girl 1

STUPID LIL GIRL
 © Athena Coelho
I never thought i would write this but i tears found their way through words ...
p.s - folks not again plz ...m shattering...
A STUPID LI'L GIRL...
A sobbing heart,wet eyes n a sagging body ...that's what marriage hs done to her...
i sit in front of her,not daring to look into her eyes...for wt wil i say ...i know nothing of these matters ...
I m a stupid li'l girl n that's wt my mommy says ....
Her words though pierce through my chest , causing a pain so excruciatingly real...
I haven't seen but the time,the moments flash before my eyes...of her life before me...
She,a princess of a lesser rich king...poor in money but rich in love...
She, a sister...blooming in the playful childhood...
Enjoying n gting all that she asked n didn't ask for...
Is this empathy i feel for her or jealousy...i know not...
For i m a stupid li'l girl ...thats wt my mommy says...
Those blissful years of 23 flew off in a fleeting glimpse...
And...thud !...she landed in a well...
Trapped in that dingy dark place,with her mind boggling...
Where did her home go ...where went the b'ful garden...
With her sobs asking...wr did the laughter go n wr went the daughter...
I search in her words n amidst her ocean of tears...but i find nothing...
For i m a stupid li'l girl...n that's wt my mommy says ...
to b continued ... — 

Wednesday 24 December 2014

merry Christmas 🎅

Merry Christmas
 Its Christmas Eve ...
 A Christmas that comes every year ....
 Amidst snow flakes and chilling winds....
 Amidst the dreaded COLD weather
 Dreaded coz of the loneliness associated with this cold
 Dreaded coz of the dead lifeless trees
 Dreaded coz of the aloof cold hearts that surrounded me ...or rather my own cold heart
 And no one could ever melt the frozen heart ....
 Its Christmas eve
 yet again ....
 And voilà! What has changed ???
 Why do I await it now...
 Why do I see this beauty around me...
 Why am I in a festive mood ?
 Why doesn't my smile stop ?
 Its Christmas eve
 And I feel the warmth amidst this wonderful chill...
 The cute snowmen smilin at me ...
 The cuddled babies in their mother's lap ...
 The lil socks that are woven for tiny feet...
 The hot coffees that we share with loved ones...
 The old wisdom and laughter that plays around the dancing flames ...
 The enchanting solace of the night....
 The Christmas trees n the Santa caps that bring colour to an otherwise colourless expanse ....
 Its Christmas eve ...
 Yet again ....
 But wait ... No ...
 My first Christmas .... That feels so beautiful ....
 The silent nights adorned by the stars of love ....
 The rare sunbeams filling me with radiance ...
 The sudden blush of my cheeks emanating from ur kisses ...
 The smile that never seems to leave ...
 The glow that the eyes show ...
 A glow radiating from a blessed lightened up heart....
 The warm embrace of your arms. ..
 The sweet nothings in my ears ...
 The quiet whispers that escape ur lips ...
 The eyes that meet and the glimpses of eternity that fleet ...
 The music that seeps through the soul and the trance that follows ...
 The madness that we share and the happiness that we spread ....
 The feeling called HOME ....
 All of this comes as a new birth ...
 Of the Lord .... Of of every broken soul ... Of the dead leaves... Of my own self ..
 Thank you lord ...
 Merry Christmas  to us
 Merry Christmas  to all
 God bless the world
‪#‎Athena‬
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Tuesday 23 December 2014

amidst it all

AMIDST IT ALL ....
©ATHENA COELHO
 Amidst the clatter of the utensils, she had to find her music...
 Amidst the shouts and abuses , she had to find her voice...
 Amidst the cries and wails , she found her song...
 Amidst the blows inflicted , she found her tolerance...
 Amidst the heavy footsteps , she found her heartbeat...
 Amidst the broken glasses, she found her mirror...
 Amidst the pillows wet by her tears, she found the heat dissipating...
 Amidst the reddened eyes, she found her fire...
 Amidst the dripping tears , she found the way to quench her thirst...
 Amidst that one small pencil, she found the way to meagreness...
 AMIDST THAT DEADLY SILENCE, SHE FOUND HER WORDS...
 But now she is tired of playing this 'Treasure hunt ' of a non existent treasure...
 n now she just doesn't want to find anything...anything 'Amidst it all ' ....
 just wanting to leave all this behind and living free...
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Sunday 21 December 2014


Him n her 💖
     ©Athena Coelho
Her - hey hero ! I want a gift. (with a        thumping dhak dhak heart )
Him - yeah my princess .... Just lay ur hands on anything and it'll be urs...
Her- hmm ... I want those trousers with the military camouflage print .
Him- from where would i get them ???
Her-  areyyyy .... You are my superman na ... Kahin se bhi le aao (get it from anywhere)
Him-  😞 Don't take me wrong honey but can i say something. 😞
Her- yeah plzz go ahead (dhak dhak persistent)
Him - sweetheart, Those camouflaged trousers one gets after such tough , body wrecking training ... It is earned by those endless moments of toil , pain and sweat .
And i don't like when these stupid MNC's sell them like that ... Like just a piece of another cloth .... As if it could be purchased with that piece of  paper . ...... Baby ... It takes a lot of sacrifice to earn it.
Her - you are right . 😊 ... (beaming with pride at his answer ...a perspective she had never thought of)
Him - ( in a flux n sad😞) hmm ... But I'll still get it for you if u want ... U too are sacrificing a lot ...being a soldier's girlfriend.
Her- noo.... Its ok ... I was just kidding ... I don't want anything .
Him - You never ask for anything, n you asked for a gift for the first time..... There ought to be a reason. Tell me .. Why these  trousers....
Her - nothing really .... Just like that ...😊😊😊
Him - hmm ok as u wish .
Her - (rapidly increasing smile 😊😉😁😂😂) yeahhhhhh

   >>>......... That night beneath the starry sky ...........<<<
Her - superman
Him- yeah my supergirl (wink wink😉😉)
Her - hmm ... U were askin me na that y i wanted those trousers . Well.... Hmmm ....  Actually... So many years bk ....
Him - ssshhhhh , my princess ... I know everything .
Her- what ???? (surprised 😲😲)
Him - these trousers are surely one of those unrequited, unfulfilled childhood wishes of urs that were never fulfilled .... That were ignored .... That still lay buried deep inside ur heart .... That may b insignificant for the world but they mean so much for you .... Ur source of small joys....
Her - (baffled .... With tears dripping down her cheeks .... Speechless... N every word of this man resonating with her heart n makin it almost burst)😞😢😢😢....
Him - (wiping those tears) i knew it all honey ... From the hesitation in ur words to ur thumping heart .... From your earnest wish to ur fake smiles trying to hide ur emotions within .... I knew it all .
Her - (hiding in his arms upon his chest.... Her safe haven) .....
Him- oyeeee supergirl ... Look at me ... N stop spoiling ur Kajal (wiping her moist cheeks) 😊😚😚
Her-  yp
Him - sweetheart i could gift u anything and everything you want ... But i want you , urself ... To fulfil those special little unfulfilled wishes of urs .... So that you get that pride......(placing his palm on her thumping heart) .... So that 'this' storm slows down ....
 These are ur childhood dreams ... Go lady ... Fly n fulfill them ... I am n will always be the wind beneath your wings...
I want you to be free ... Free always ... From bounds ...from shackles ... I pray that may my love liberate you ....

N with that he kissed her forehead... 😚
Her - (smiling shyly) u know everything na ??
Him - ( holding her waist n pulling her closer) yeah babes ... I am your mirror ...😉😉💖💖
  
 ... U fulfill me in ways magical n unknown....
#Athena Coelho

Him n her 💖
     ©Athena Coelho
Her - hey hero ! I want a gift. (with a        thumping dhak dhak heart )
Him - yeah my princess .... Just lay ur hands on anything and it'll be urs...
Her- hmm ... I want those trousers with the military camouflage print .
Him- from where would i get them ???
Her-  areyyyy .... You are my superman na ... Kahin se bhi le aao (get it from anywhere)
Him-  😞 Don't take me wrong honey but can i say something. 😞
Her- yeah plzz go ahead (dhak dhak persistent)
Him - sweetheart, Those camouflaged trousers one gets after such tough , body wrecking training ... It is earned by those endless moments of toil , pain and sweat .
And i don't like when these stupid MNC's sell them like that ... Like just a piece of another cloth .... As if it could be purchased with that piece of  paper . ...... Baby ... It takes a lot of sacrifice to earn it.
Her - you are right . 😊 ... (beaming with pride at his answer ...a perspective she had never thought of)
Him - ( in a flux n sad😞) hmm ... But I'll still get it for you if u want ... U too are sacrificing a lot ...being a soldier's girlfriend.
Her- noo.... Its ok ... I was just kidding ... I don't want anything .
Him - You never ask for anything, n you asked for a gift for the first time..... There ought to be a reason. Tell me .. Why these  trousers....
Her - nothing really .... Just like that ...😊😊😊
Him - hmm ok as u wish .
Her - (rapidly increasing smile 😊😉😁😂😂) yeahhhhhh

   >>>......... That night beneath the starry sky ...........<<<
Her - superman
Him- yeah my supergirl (wink wink😉😉)
Her - hmm ... U were askin me na that y i wanted those trousers . Well.... Hmmm ....  Actually... So many years bk ....
Him - ssshhhhh , my princess ... I know everything .
Her- what ???? (surprised 😲😲)
Him - these trousers are surely one of those unrequited, unfulfilled childhood wishes of urs that were never fulfilled .... That were ignored .... That still lay buried deep inside ur heart .... That may b insignificant for the world but they mean so much for you .... Ur source of small joys....
Her - (baffled .... With tears dripping down her cheeks .... Speechless... N every word of this man resonating with her heart n makin it almost burst)😞😢😢😢....
Him - (wiping those tears) i knew it all honey ... From the hesitation in ur words to ur thumping heart .... From your earnest wish to ur fake smiles trying to hide ur emotions within .... I knew it all .
Her - (hiding in his arms upon his chest.... Her safe haven) .....
Him- oyeeee supergirl ... Look at me ... N stop spoiling ur Kajal (wiping her moist cheeks) 😊😚😚
Her-  yp
Him - sweetheart i could gift u anything and everything you want ... But i want you , urself ... To fulfil those special little unfulfilled wishes of urs .... So that you get that pride......(placing his palm on her thumping heart) .... So that 'this' storm slows down ....
 These are ur childhood dreams ... Go lady ... Fly n fulfill them ... I am n will always be the wind beneath your wings...
I want you to be free ... Free always ... From bounds ...from shackles ... I pray that may my love liberate you ....

N with that he kissed her forehead... 😚
Her - (smiling shyly) u know everything na ??
Him - ( holding her waist n pulling her closer) yeah babes ... I am your mirror ...😉😉💖💖
  
 ... U fulfill me in ways magical n unknown....
#Athena Coelho

Him n her 💖
     ©Athena Coelho
Her - hey hero ! I want a gift. (with a        thumping dhak dhak heart )
Him - yeah my princess .... Just lay ur hands on anything and it'll be urs...
Her- hmm ... I want those trousers with the military camouflage print .
Him- from where would i get them ???
Her-  areyyyy .... You are my superman na ... Kahin se bhi le aao (get it from anywhere)
Him-  😞 Don't take me wrong honey but can i say something. 😞
Her- yeah plzz go ahead (dhak dhak persistent)
Him - sweetheart, Those camouflaged trousers one gets after such tough , body wrecking training ... It is earned by those endless moments of toil , pain and sweat .
And i don't like when these stupid MNC's sell them like that ... Like just a piece of another cloth .... As if it could be purchased with that piece of  paper . ...... Baby ... It takes a lot of sacrifice to earn it.
Her - you are right . 😊 ... (beaming with pride at his answer ...a perspective she had never thought of)
Him - ( in a flux n sad😞) hmm ... But I'll still get it for you if u want ... U too are sacrificing a lot ...being a soldier's girlfriend.
Her- noo.... Its ok ... I was just kidding ... I don't want anything .
Him - You never ask for anything, n you asked for a gift for the first time..... There ought to be a reason. Tell me .. Why these  trousers....
Her - nothing really .... Just like that ...😊😊😊
Him - hmm ok as u wish .
Her - (rapidly increasing smile 😊😉😁😂😂) yeahhhhhh

   >>>......... That night beneath the starry sky ...........<<<
Her - superman
Him- yeah my supergirl (wink wink😉😉)
Her - hmm ... U were askin me na that y i wanted those trousers . Well.... Hmmm ....  Actually... So many years bk ....
Him - ssshhhhh , my princess ... I know everything .
Her- what ???? (surprised 😲😲)
Him - these trousers are surely one of those unrequited, unfulfilled childhood wishes of urs that were never fulfilled .... That were ignored .... That still lay buried deep inside ur heart .... That may b insignificant for the world but they mean so much for you .... Ur source of small joys....
Her - (baffled .... With tears dripping down her cheeks .... Speechless... N every word of this man resonating with her heart n makin it almost burst)😞😢😢😢....
Him - (wiping those tears) i knew it all honey ... From the hesitation in ur words to ur thumping heart .... From your earnest wish to ur fake smiles trying to hide ur emotions within .... I knew it all .
Her - (hiding in his arms upon his chest.... Her safe haven) .....
Him- oyeeee supergirl ... Look at me ... N stop spoiling ur Kajal (wiping her moist cheeks) 😊😚😚
Her-  yp
Him - sweetheart i could gift u anything and everything you want ... But i want you , urself ... To fulfil those special little unfulfilled wishes of urs .... So that you get that pride......(placing his palm on her thumping heart) .... So that 'this' storm slows down ....
 These are ur childhood dreams ... Go lady ... Fly n fulfill them ... I am n will always be the wind beneath your wings...
I want you to be free ... Free always ... From bounds ...from shackles ... I pray that may my love liberate you ....

N with that he kissed her forehead... 😚
Her - (smiling shyly) u know everything na ??
Him - ( holding her waist n pulling her closer) yeah babes ... I am your mirror ...😉😉💖💖
  
 ... U fulfill me in ways magical n unknown....
#Athena Coelho

Thursday 18 December 2014

DRENCHED IN DRYNESS

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DRENCHED IN DRYNESS -ATHENA COELHO Utter amazement engulfs me as i experience the mystique of the desert while standing in the rain... The desert with its winds, its sand , its music speaks to me , hears me ...
A music whose beats fill me with exuberant zeal..., n the slick melodies enchant me ...immersing me into a slumber...
A story untold, a story confessed...
But as i enter the expanse , the desert ...a place of discomfort, hot sands, dry nature and nothingness....
its eerie silence , instead of haunting me... Invades my senses...
We tell tales to each other,
tales of despair , anguish and loss...
tales of love , hope and joy...
But suddenly from up above the heaven, descends a light ..... Illuminating both of us ...
A light so reverend, so divine...that the sands dance around to the tune of the wind to pay obesceince to it ...
A light so magical that it drenches me in dryness...
washing away everything, leading me to nothingness....
I take a step and the desert embraces my feet with all the sand ... Jostling and escaping through the folds of my garments....
I see the beauty of letting it go ...
I look up at the sky , getting blinded by the glare of the light ...
feeling the futility and nothingness of my existence......
And there comes a small child ...holds my hands ...guides me across the vast expanse...
Reminding me that this nothingness of my existence is the creation of my God ...
that my guardian angel surrounds me at all times ...protecting me....
Reminding me that i am blessed and indebted too...
Indebted to transform this nothingness into ampleness ...
TO BE THE MEDIATOR....NOTTHE CREATOR
TO RAISE ...AND YET TO SURRENDER.....

Saturday 13 December 2014

CONFESSIONS Of AN INDIAN NAARI


CONFESSIONS OF AN 'INDIAN' NAARI (young woman)
-ATHENA COELHO
I seem to have become saturated with the emotions prevalent for the people of my age . The saturation has reached the levels of indifference n generally visible to others as an ultimate 'dil todne Ki machine' heart breaker . Majority of the friends i have r males n i enjoy beautiful friendships with them . But somehow i hv utterly failed to accept that a male can ever be a potential life partner for me. The trust deficit lies not in thm but with my own self . I cant trust myself with someone's heart, someone's love , someone's life long commitment ....n the biggest irony is that they come with no intention to love n themselves fall in love with this emotionless girl. It scares me .... Terribly... Fear of forever lonliness ...
sooner than i realized , i am a young woman now , well into adulthood, well past the whims n fancies, aspiring to take up responsible professions but so fickle in her own heart . After a self induced breakup n mny 'about to b born relationships ' killed by me (though they were all good) , my heart refuses to stick n say that HE'S THE ONE . My honesty if intentions is unquestionable,but somehow that dreadful monotony , boredom gripples me n no matter how much i try its impossible to hold on .
......... Realise i know ..... That .... Eternly m a nomadic gypsy ...... —



Friday 12 December 2014

INDIA - a nation that stirred million souls . A land that produced men and women of the most exalted character. I believe India is not just a nation, its a way of life , an emotion , a spirit ... "the spirit of India" that binds 100 million people together, despite having nothing in common. A day to take into account the pains , the struggles, the humiliations and the glories of the world's LARGEST AND LEAST LIKELY DEMOCRACY . ..... There have been brutal conflicts rocking this giant nation and there have been extraordinary individuals and institutions who have held it together.... despite differences of religion, caste language, festivals , colour , race INDIA EXISTS AND SHINES ...... INDIA'S EXISTENCE AS ONE SINGLE COUNTRY IS NOTHING SHORT OF A MIRACLE..... India creates magic with democracy, rule of law , individual freedom n diversity ..... WOW, what a place to b an intellectual. !!!! I wouldn't mind being born 10 times to rediscover India... We criticize the system , the govt all year long .....but today i wanna say .... As a nation we haven't failed ..... Our achievements are commendable....I am not worried about the economy , we have the best think tank. Our soldiers are doin a great job ...SALUTES UNTO U ..... what i am worried about is the DEGRADED MORAL FIBRE OF OUR SOCIETY .... OUR GOVTS HAVEN'T FAILED ....BUT WE AS HUMANS , AS CITIZENS, AS INDIANS HAVE FAILED ..... TO RESPECT THIS HARD EARNED FREEDOM , TO RESPECT THE SANCTITY OF PARLIAMENT AND CHOOSE FOR INDIA .... TO RESPECT OUR WOMEN .... TO GET INDEPENDENCE FROM THE SICK STANDARDS OF OUR BACKWARD SOCIETY ...... our place in the world is high ...our youth is reverred for their intelligence, our golden history is a legacy of glory ....but we are hated ...yes hated n shunned at for our HYPOCRISY, INSENSITIVITY, BACKWARDNESS &amp; CHEAP MENTALITY ..... SO let this day b a pledge to get independence.... From all this ...coz. IS DESH KA BAHUT KUCH HO SAKTA HAI ....N WE OWE IT TO INDIA ....TO OUR FREEDOM
 Jaisa bhi Hu apna mujhe , mujhe ye nhi hai bolna ....
 Kaabil tere Mein bn saku mujhe dwaar aisa kholna ....
 Mere khoon Ki har boond Mein sankalp ho tere pyaar ka ...
 Kaato mujhe to tu bahe ...
 Ho surkh rang har dhaar ka ....
‪#‎satyamevjayate‬
‪#‎vandematram‬

Thursday 11 December 2014


HIM N HER 💝


He- hey , so ws up ?? How's the Diwali preparation goin on
She - I don't like celebrating Diwali ... Rather no festivals. *Their familiar silence *
He -" Diwali's have always been the heated arguments and fights between parents " .
She - "same here yar ... It has become a burden now ... The formalities and nothing more than a wretched holiday."
He - but its gonna b different now . She- How???
He - its gonna be ... Really a festival with u ... A celebration .... Now that we are together....
She - (shrugging) ahan! What r v gonna do .
Both- (at the same time) i hate crackers now ....
*giggles*
He - we will pray together , play together and spread lights to the lives of Lil orphaned children by the best ways we can .
She - (beaming with pride n wonder) Heyy!!! Those are mine plans !!!!
He - I am urs too ... Those are gonna be our plans .
HAPPY DIWALI LOVE
Awwww ... U leave a writer speechless
#love you
 

I AM FREE


I sit here n think...of all the mistakes dn...of the lessons learnt... I know m living in an illusion...of love,care ,fun n joy ...
all of which demands my constant physical presence ,to manifest itself....
all of which r so transient,that i fear of their loss with a blink of my eye...
the illusion is not of the sou...but of blood n bonds ...
yet ironically the only thing seemingly real r my own dreams...
deep down my heart,i know m guilty...
for the feelings i should not feel...
for the dreams m not allowed to see...
They say desire is a sin...
can a caged bird's desire for freedom be a sin?
can a soul's desire for love b a sin?
i know not who these 'they' r ...i just know that they have driven the god out of the temple ....
n so i am guilty in their courts...
guilty of being 'jealous' wn i c other's bonds so nourished....which though possibly may be as crippled as mine...
guilty of being selfish....wheni embrace my little joys before the complexities of the world....
guilty of arrogance...wn i dare to soar the skies....
guilty of the 'eve's apple ' ...the desire i have for dreams ,joys n freedoms captured....
but i wonder y then...y with so much guilt ...i feel so freeeeee????? —
© Athena Coelho

Wednesday 10 December 2014

Death 💀 - meanings

A relative of mine died few days back. An old lady ....sick ....n a completely expected death ....


And here unfolds the drama I witnessed and have been witnessing every time .
People flocked the house . Wails of cries filled the air n echoed through the walls .
Some of them real but majority fake ....
What caught my attention were the fake ones.


The sound of the doorbell...
And all the ladies get into acting mode ....
Ready to give their vocal cords an exercise...
And lose some of the NaCl + H2O ....


And here come's another consoler...
And the actors wail at the top of their voices ...
Beating chests, and shedding more water....


And two minutes of drama, the consoler cries along .....
And then a break and rehearsal for another act...
And the show goes on ....


The actors have no ill will...
Poor people.. They are ruled by chains of traditions and norms of the society ...
And amidst this drama ...amidst this water that's shed ....
There are drops of tears as well ....
From a son , a husband and probably a brother and a sister....


And I cant control my laughter as I remember Shakespeare saying ....
Comedy emanates from tragedy...
And as the night befalls....
The daughter-in-law asks her mother...


What do i have to do tomorrow....
Mother," Oh! You have to sit in the front yard and begin the drama again .... Cry louder... Let your shrieks' be heard..... That's the norm my lv ....that will prove your worth as an ideal daughter in law"


Why shan't I laugh at this shamness....
Why shan't I mock the hypocrisy of this world...
Why shan't I ask a question....
Everyone knows its a drama , everyone plays the role so perfectly well...even without a director ...and yet everyone is a revered, learned, intelligent fool...


Whom are we fooling .... The god .... The one who died or just changed a body ... Or our own existence?????


And as Sherlock Holmes says," death is the beginning my friend".
© Athena Coelho

Tuesday 9 December 2014

A cold winter morning

A cold winter morning ...
Though the sun makes ardent efforts to bring a lil warmth to my heart ...
But its still chilled and icey ...
Though the birds make efforts to fill it with their sweet nothings ....
but it still remains deaf ....
Though the yellow autumn leaves try their best to entertain me with their dance ....
but I choose to still close my eyes ...
Though the warm blanket pleads me to snuggle n drift away in a peaceful trance ....
but my heart ♥ still beats restlessly ...


And I wait forever earnestly ...


For its only your honey 🍯 voice that melts my icey heart ...
for its only your laughter that seems like music to my ears ..
for its only your sight that fills me up ...that runs tears of love down my cheeks ....
for its only the embrace of your arms that give warmth , comfort , solace to the to this restless heart ♥.
#Athena
#come soon
#someone waits

Sunday 7 December 2014

generous blanket

This winter night ..... Inside the blanket ... Lies a silent world of conflict....
a warm heart filled with love ...heave eyes filled awaiting dreams .... Cold feet trying to steal some of the heart's warmth ....
And yet the sky of blanket is so generous , as to bless this world ....to eradicate conflicts .... To evenly bless it with warmth and comfort.... To let it travel the horizons unknown .... In the mysterious dreams ....


feels so safe ...
#Athena

Saturday 6 December 2014

Happiness is watching him sleep like a child on a late Sunday morning .... well not exactly watching ....but at least listening.... Ssssahhhhhh ....

my first post ✉

My sanity and sanctity lies in staying aloof from the wisdom of this world .....

#Athena


finally blogging.... Feels good .... Welcome to me 💖